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23 - puer aeternus

by b e a u

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(chorus) I just wanna make it through the night, I'm just trynna make it through tonight, I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright (verse) I'm so tired of the screaming and the cursing and the fighting entire life I see them dying around me hiding from the truth and what they might mean divided by their youth and broken routine I see the worst of them hiding within me I just want to love you but I just can't seem to love myself (chorus) I just wanna make it through the night, I just wanna make it through tonight, I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright I just wanna make it through the night, I'm just trynna make it through tonight, I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright I'm just trynna make it through the night, alright (I see the worst of them hiding within me)
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(verse) oh, the outside air just touches my lungs in a different way now that I'm locked in my room, in my room oh, the worst roommates, it's just me and my demons Jesus Christ, can someone tell me not to fuck with my own head again? the room is playing tricks on me (chorus) In my sleep, why sleep? A little deprivation never killed anyone In my sleep, why sleep? the room is playing tricks on me (verse) I've got everyone convinced I'm smiling every time I leave my fucking house but when I get home I wanna die (chorus) In my sleep, why sleep? A little deprivation never killed anyone In my sleep, why sleep? the room is playing tricks on me (bridge) I'm in love with everyone (chorus) In my sleep, why sleep? A little deprivation never killed anyone In my sleep, why sleep? the room is playing tricks on me In my sleep, why sleep? A little deprivation never killed anyone In my sleep, why sleep? the room is playing tricks on me
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(verse) bury me deep in the sea lay two speakers at my feet sleep without breathing I become my demons but these are just my ocean dreams I've still got nowhere to be don't do so well when nobody's worried about me please help me (hook) la la wait la la wait ahh (verse) it's weird I see it follow me in darkness, death and all beneath (hook) la la wait la la wait ahh (verse) bury me deep in the sea lay two speakers at my feet sleep without breathing I become my demons but these are just my ocean dreams I just wanna be there when you fall in love I'm just trynna be the one you call enough I start to think that maybe you don't care at all dancing with my demons, death's what I adore (outro) feeling less blue when I'm drowning in hue I'm feeling less blue when I'm drowning in hue feeling less blue when I'm drowning in hue I'm feeling less blue
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(intro) heaven's calling hell feels like my heartbeat half awake and half asleep I'm drowning (chorus) it's ban Francisco tell me what I did wrong heaven's only love away I'll find that love another day let's ban Francisco mind's gone out the window heaven's only love away I'll find that love another day we'll ban Francisco tell me where i belong we'll live to learn another day goodbye's are but temporary (verse) feed me those lies keep me deep in your mind sigh but i don't know why tired, tongue tied and I cry feel like life passed me by even though I survived death denied but demonized for suicidal wolf's cries heaven's calling hell feels like my heartbeat half awake and half asleep I'm drowning (chorus) it's ban Francisco tell me what I did wrong heaven's only love away I'll find that love another day let's ban Francisco mind's gone out the window heaven's only love away I'll find that love another day we'll ban Francisco tell me where i belong we'll live to learn another day goodbye's are but temporary (verse) feed me those lies keep me deep in your mind sigh but i don't know why tired, tongue tied and I cry feel like life passed me by even though I survived death denied but demonized for suicidal wolf's cries heaven's calling hell feels like my heartbeat half awake and half asleep I'm drowning
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all these fucking people yelling they don't really need me now I'm lost up in the sea I'm drowning head held high, I'm screaming heaven's calling my receipt in make me question my believes and join teams with all my demons screaming they don't really need me no they don't really need me last night, I popped a benzo last light going out im in my endzone fuck fright, I hang my head low fast fight, I let my hands go threads tied, I walk the tight rope threads tied, I hang, I lost hope (hook) i have hope i have hope (verse) i had high hopes but i had high everything convinced by this syringe now your love for me has gone extinct (hook) but i have hope i have hope (verse) i'm just lyin' on my own while i'm lying to myself no the floor won't let me fall but this farewell, yeah it could end it all never knew this day would come left me broken, so asunder this music's been my madness but kept me sane when smiles all start to vanish (hook) now i had hope i had hope i had hope i had hope (verse) maybe it's me i should have just left love alone well enough, i should have known i'm sorry i couldn't do this i fight my demons on the daily lost control and lost my baby life's not been the same as of lately as of lately (verse) was it worth it just to be right should have put my fucking ego aside just to be right by your side just to be right by your side such a heavenly way to die just to be right by your side such a heavenly way to die (hook) I've lost hope and i can't cope (verse) the taste of metal cuts my silver tongue yeah, the taste of metal has got me feeling numb oh, the taste of metal cuts my silver tongue yeah, the taste of metal has got me feeling numb (outro) share this last earpiece with me oh, how i'll miss you
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(norrii's verse) Time slows down, I'm giving in to the world I'm in Life holds on, is it worth giving up to the thought of it? Are we moving a mile a minute? (chorus by norrii ) (beau's verse) I remember when I couldn't breathe Hold my hand and let me drift please I remember you were there for me I don't wanna watch my friends bleed I don't wanna lose my friends I don't wanna die again Heaven/hell it's all the same Silver surfer suffering (chorus by norrii & beau) (chavelli's verse) I'm drowning it seems the stars are the spirits hold on to me we'll be gone in a minute

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I saw it in your eyes, in your love, you too are swinging towards the depths of your own being in longer and longer circles. I saw happiness and pain in your eyes and reflection of the Paradises lost and regained and lost again, that terrible loneliness and happiness, yes, and I reflect upon this and I think about you, like two lonely space pilots in outer cold space, as I sit here this late night alone and I think about all this."

As I Was Moving Ahead Occasionally I Saw Brief Glimpses Of Beauty

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released June 6, 2021

Written, Mixed, Mastered and Produced by Gervaldo Francisco Sloot
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