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22 - if i were, as i was, all i've known.

by b e a u

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1.
Who are you? Who are we? Who am I? Tell me that we're not the same than tell me that's a lie Tell me how you lie awake damn near every night Tell me why I'm so afraid and tell me I'll be fine Who are you? Who are we? Who am I? Tell me that we're not the same than tell me that's a lie Tell me how I go insane damn near every night Tell me it'll be okay and tell me I won't die Who are you? Who are we? Who am I? Tell me that we're not the same than tell me that's a lie Tell me how you lie awake down there every night Tell me why I'm so afraid and tell me I'll be fine Who are you? Who are we? Who am I? Tell me that we're not the same than tell me that's a lie Tell me how I go insane damn near every night Tell me it'll be okay and tell me I won't die
2.
(chorus beau & gordy) I was a lonely boy looking for love I was a broken boy looking for love I was a lonely boy looking for love I was a broken boy looking for (post chorus gordy) Maybe I was looking in the wrong places Maybe I was looking for the wrong faces Maybe I was looking in the wrong places Maybe I was looking for the wrong faces (verse beau) now, I've broken bones and I've destroyed myself nothing hurts quite like you I was a low key boy looking for love now, I've broken bones and I've destroyed myself nothing hurts quite like you I was a broken boy looking for love (pre chorus beau & gordy) Maybe I was looking in the wrong places Maybe I was looking for the wrong faces Maybe I was looking in the wrong places Maybe I was looking for the wrong faces (chorus gordy) I was a lonely boy looking for love I was a broken boy looking for love I was a lonely boy looking for love I was a broken boy looking for
3.
(verse one) foreign city, foreign road I don't know where I go but I go it alone Drunken days don't feel the same since we wept since we cried since we went our separate ways drunk and dazed i drown the pain i try to die everyday now always fucking up always letting down nothing never goes right for me now (chorus) down a lonely road I go I don't know where it goes but I go it alone down a lonely road I go I don't know where it goes but I go it alone (acoustic guitar solo) (verse two) foreign city, foreign road I don't know where I go but I go it alone pain and pleasure mixing those I doze off,I come to overdosing on you and i drove a little too fast was a little too drunk didn't see the red light now I'm lost in the heights and I'm leaving this life behind don't you know I gotta go (chorus) down a lonely road I go I don't know where it goes but I go it alone down a lonely road I go I don't know where it goes but I go it alone (post chorus) drunk and dazed i drown the pain i try to die everyday now drove a little too fast was a little too drunk didn't see the red light now I'm lost in the heights (acoustic solo outro)
4.
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh (let the morphine alarms sing) This hospital is my second home I heal and go through hell alone with my skin sewn, my scars show these benzo's are taking control
5.
(intro) we're losing ourselves we're dying tonight we're dying tonight we're dying tonight (chorus) we aren't alright your kids aren't alright we can't save ourselves we're losing tonight we aren't alright your kids aren't alright we're losing ourselves we're dying tonight (refrain) we're dying tonight we're dying tonight ( verse) just like van Gogh I feel alone again just like lil peep I'm overdosing and tell me it's all in my head these fears and these fucking regrets I'm left out of the place I belong so I'll reach out to you in this song I'm a black sheep to these black sheep yeah I know I'm a black sheep to these black sheep yeah I know I've lost all control I've lost all control (chorus X2) we aren't alright your kids aren't alright we can't save ourselves we're losing tonight we aren't alright your kids aren't alright we're losing ourselves we're dying tonight (outro) But we'll be alright your kids are just fine we're saving ourselves it might take some time But we'll be alright your kids are just fine we're saving ourselves it might take some time yeah it might take some time we might take some time
6.
(chorus) Feeling like I'm up all night Twenty-something, I survived Not for nothing, not for lies No suicide I'm still alive Feeling like I'm on cloud nine Twenty-something, death denied Not for nothing, not for lies No suicide I'm still alive (verse) Join me as I disappear there's no need to breathe in fear redesigned the atmosphere for all the stars for all light years the air supply will never run out we will never come down when there's nothing left everything will just go right (chorus) Feeling like I'm up all night Twenty-something, I survived Not for nothing, not for lies No suicide I'm still alive Feeling like I'm on cloud nine Twenty-something, death denied Not for nothing, not for lies No suicide I'm still alive ~
7.
(chorus) why are you alone tonight crying on your own tonight is he on the road tonight can I be your shoulder now (verse one) knees scabbed and scarred legs wide and wounded life leaves her lungs smiles left when young you fuck for food you pay with pain get lost in lust the scars remain against your will you still succumb then time stands still and needles numb needles to say next thing you know feeling her soul leaving her body's left dead on the floor we've been here before (chorus) why are you alone tonight crying on your own tonight is he on the road tonight can I be your shoulder now (verse two) I'll paint a perfect picture with my pupils dilated see the world as I embrace it we're all useless, we're all faceless yes, I'll paint a perfect picture with my pupils dilated see the world as I embrace it it's not realistic tho, face it yeah I'll see the world when wool is lifted as it unfurls world view gets shifted yeah colours vivid in my minds eye time stands still but still it flies by ego dies but still i survive be still listen..shhh and maybe you'll find just listen is this what you're looking for (x2) (chorus X2 + first verse)
8.
black alice 01:23
move me through the looking glass (chorus) little Alice fell (far) down the hole, here we go off with her head (wake up, wake up) she's still got the scars on her soul little Alice fell (far) down the hole, hare we go bumped her head she's still got the scars on her soul she' still got the scars left to show (verse) her habits held her hostage (addiction) been busy bagging black body's shawty peer pressured into bad bondage shotty to the temple, let me bang on it let me bang on it like this beat do (hard) let me bang on her and mistreat you (fuck) love me black Alice white rabbit coke habit, down the acid down the hole, here we go (chorus) little Alice fell (far) down the hole, here we go off with her head (wake up, wake up) she's still got the scars on her soul little Alice fell (far) down the hole, hare we go bumped her head she's still got the scars on her soul she' still got the scars left to show
9.
(distorted intro) this is poetry in motion the mystery of why every motor is in motion and visually divine every letter is love and every word is an oasis every letter is love and every word is an oasis (verse one) I don't want you anymore like I wanted before 'fore my walls came on tumbling you told me of course said of course I'm all yours but my heart, baby knows a different story (pre chorus) but it's alright now, alright so don't fight now, don't fight (chorus) wait a minute something's wrong wait a second my baby's gone I don't love you anymore but I don't love you any less (verse two) there's something stuck in my throat the pain in my vocal chords the pain that I can't let go the pain that I go towards I still sing of you all the time even though it's been quite a while fell out of love, into the sky tell me I've lost my mind (chorus) wait a minute something's wrong wait a second my baby's gone I don't love you anymore but I don't love you any less (instrumental)
10.
U 01:42
I don't wanna sit down if I'm not by your side come with me now ,girl come waste my time cuz I, I just want you now yes I just want you now cuz I ain't got nothing to lose , no I ain't got nothing to lose , no I don't wanna sit down if I'm not by your side come with me now , we'll leave the universe behind cuz I just want you to waste my time yes I just want you to waste my time I got nothing to lose now so why wont you just waste my time I love you thank you for listening

about

“When I die, bury me deep, lay two speakers at my feet.

Wrap some headphones around my head,

and rock and roll me when I’m dead.”

And the earth looked at me and said, "Wasn't that fun?"

And I replied, "I'm sorry if I hurt anyone..."

And without even thinking cast me into space,

But before she did that she wiped off my own face.

She said, "Better luck next time, don't worry so much."

Without ears I couldn't hear I could just feel the touch.

The deeper I swing into the regions of nothingness

The further I'm thrown back into myself,

Each time more and more frightening depths below me

credits

released March 28, 2021

Written, Mixed, Mastered and Produced by Gervaldo Francisco Sloot
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